Posted here just to remind myself and hope it serves as an inspiration to you all as well.

Dear James
 
Thanks for your feedback.

When you develop a Positive Mental Attitude, you immediately set yourself apart from the crowd.

You become a leader because positive thinking leads to positive action, while negative thinking leads to apathy and inaction. When you take the initiative in any situation, others will follow simply because they like to associate with people who know where they are going. In order to lead, however, you must first be willing to discipline yourself...

The first rule of leadership is never to ask others to do what you are unwilling to do yourself. You can lead only by example.

Being a leader requires you to work harder and longer than the others and proving you are the master of your own destiny.

Live Freely!
clemen

This is a week that i got major setback and breakdown, totally.

1st, baby shaun was unexpectedly, for the unknown reason, hit by seizure and unconscious. And for once, i thought i was gonna lost my loved one... i was totally helpless for that moment. Luckily, there was no damaged done except i got myself 3 years older after this incident. Doc couldn't even do a thing except to advise us to pay close attention on him. day and night. Should this happen again, we shall do a thorough brain CAT scan on Shaun... to see what goes wrong, in his brain...

2nd, am getting weaker, physically & mentally. I believe, if i am not mentally strong, or at least keep it in a less stressful and more relax mode, my physically fitness will not go better either. They go parallel with each other. I Set a goal early in this year that i will be more health consciuos and never get myself fall sick, but, up to now, it has been my 4th time this year. 1st, i had food poisoning (ok, this i can't control), spent 1.5 days on bed. Just about getting back on my foot, baby shaun gave me my biggest nightmare in my whole life, ever. Then, 2 days later,  i was hit by this damn flu virus... that made me dizzy for 2 more days. Worse, it's fell on my Options Trading Championship. The timing couldn't be better...

 3rd, i broke my own trading rule. Do not trade when i get sick. I have only myself to blame for. Over the 3 trading days stretch, i lost USD15k. Not because my brain couldn't function properly, matter of fact, all the stocks (10 of them) that i pick, have successfully beaten analysts' estimate, reported outstanding quarterly revenue and guidance. But, the market has no mercy on me. In fact, the market doesn't care at all, it doesn't care how hard working i am, it doesn't care how much effort i put on, it just hit me right on me face. I fell hardly, indeed. I shall rise again. But this time, it will take me longer time... I learnt something out of it, for the least. What i can say is... just accept the fact the, the market is dynamic.

4th, what's the big deal of the trading thingy??? simply bcoz it's my project/plan to get me out of  my rat race. This championship is an opportunity to test on my system, which i have been working on for the past 3 years.  And i failed miserably. There are some missing pieces yet to be found in my system... i have to start from square one. I lost the war, but i haven't lost the battle yet.

Lastly, i need an avenue for me to express all my bad feelings and emotions  All my loved ones, are so caught out in life, who do not really seem to have spare time, or perhaps to bother, to listen at all... No, i am not asking for your pity. I am not asking for your advice. I am just asking for you to be there with me... while i am pursuing my dreams, alone... is there too much for you?

I am a total failure, indeed. I just realized, this textmalaysia site is my best place for self express afterall.  Great job, ddcat!

Stefano., sereno szxmon stefon seymour steph swain shmuel saundre schyler selwynn seraphin sereno seth sean  shanton shaquone sherwyne shouan simione

still undecided yet...

1) End of October'05: Taping out my 2nd lil' prince. I'm yet to find a nice name for him. Name starts with S and 3 syllabus is the best or 1 or 2 syllabus oso can lah... How does Sebastian sound like??? My LS buddies once mentioned SiGeeNa $!@#%  Friends asked why must start with S??? My first son's name is Jonathan. 2nd one will be S******* Simply because JS is my initial lah :)  So, my 3rd & 4th kids' names will start with L and Y respectively. LY is my honey's initial loh...

2) Mid of December'05: Produce a short video clip during my Company's Annual Dinner to a) Create awareness of compassion for the unfortunate ones b) Acknowledge my company's charity team members c) Raise fund for next year's charity expenses/projects. Am planing to hv ALTR employees to donate $$$ as a way to cast vote for our ALTR Idol contest during Annual Dinner; juz like the SMS concept for Malaysia Idol... that's why, it's essential for this video clip to hv the power to inspire, touch and move others such that they are willing to donate $$$ while casting vote for their loved ones :) All ideas is welcome. Pls feedback...

3) Beginning of Jan'06: Visiting Orphanage Home in Penang. Shh.... do you know that helping and making difference for others is contagious??? juz like the pri*** potato's slogan..."once you pop, you can't stop" :) My last project will be organizing a trip to the orphanage home. Everyone is welcome. Of course, i'll choose an orphanage home which the public is paying less attention to. Any idea??? Pls name me a few!!!

Special thanks to lionel and ddcat for this photo!